Numb's The Word

 Yesterday I wasn't so glum

Mother's day again, without my mum,

I felt 'this is fine'

Whatever may come,

I've come to terms, 

I've done my sums,

The years of good outweigh

If not out number, the grieving ones,

I had no flicker

No pain, no sadness to overcome,

No Jealousy for other kids with mum,

But today I thawed

And saw, 

That I'd just been numb.

Thank You

 Thank you so much God

Thank you for what you do

Thank you for the faithful way

You love me

I love you

I want you to know

For all the times I forget

the times I lower my eyes

Bury my face in regret

It sometimes hurts the more to know

You've never failed me yet

(How I forget)

But my names are written on your palms

Engrained, engraved into your flesh

Your mercy flows forever

Your love is ever fresh

(Oh I love your righteousness)

Oh Lord keep me and bless me

As I sing for all I am worth

He Blesses me and keeps me forever

The Lord of Heaven and Earth

My burden is on his shielding shoulders

His love covers me

I'm sealed by his holy Spirit

I'm his eternally

16.03.2020

Life is Good

I say that the world is not a bad place,

And that I am not evil,

That life is good,

And that I am happy.

Yet others are not happy,

And that one can be happy,

When they are not,

Is evil,

And exactly what makes this world,

A bad place.

(15/03/2016)

Smitten

I was smitten with that kitten

I was funny for that bunny

I was lovey for that dovey

I was money for that honey,

I was crazy for that baby

I was fired up with desire

I was shady for that lady

It was murky in that mire,

It was bloody in that muddy

It was parky in that dark

It was dirty in that flirty

It was snarky with that shark,

It was shaky with that snakey

It was hellish in that hole

It was breaky in that achy

It was soiled in that soul,

It was deep in that depression

It was lost in that lake

I was talking, they were taking

I was walking wide awake,

I was circling the circles

I was found going round

I was hung out and then flung out

I was upped and then downed,

I was drowning in that frowning

I was hurting in that flirt

Now I'm reeling from that feeling

I'm sitting back down in the dirt,

And I'm looking all around me

And it might just be alright,

I'm just fitting with this sitting

But I'm sitting in the light,

Oh I'm feeling kinda shite,

But I'm sitting in the light.

A Plain Sunrise

The sun came up today

As the planet turned 

There was no fanfare 

The clouds were not turned golden 

It was simply dark

And then before you knew it

It was light

And the birdsong filled the air 

As it also does on those more spectacular mornings 

And In some ways 

That beauty 

Is far, far deeper

Than all it’s usual razzmatazz 

The beauty in consistency

Light always comes

And life erupts to meet it

8/3/21 - MJB 

I Have a Dead Mother

 I have a dead mother who,

In some ways,
is more present,
Than my present Father,

That could make you think,
That my Mother is present,
Quite a lot,
She isn't
Presence,
And absence,
Like my Mum and Dad,
Are both,
Relative

Not There Yet

There’s a danger all of it’s own

Of losing a stone 

Or having woken 

When you’re feeling like it’s back under control 

When you know you’re awake

When you’ve had a few well deserved easy days

When you’ve had another 5 minutes under the duvet

And you’re on the cusp of nailing it

But so, so close to edge of the abyss

And free falling back into it

Back into your old ways

Back into slumber

While your motivation plummets 

And smoke begins to fill the house 

And on the brink of victory 

You are closer than you ever were to crushing defeat

Where you are half wake 

Half way there 

And Christ calls you 

Stay awake 

Stay awake 

Whatever you do 

Don’t go back to sleep

Don’t drift 

Grab hold of me

Let’s grab hold of this 

You’re not safe 

Until you are 

Don’t will it over 

Go the distance 

Stay alert 

Dig in

Resist 

Look up

Your salvation is near 

It is not yet here 

But it is near

25/92/21