Before

Before the foundation
was laid, The lamb,
Was slain, Proclaimed,
The great I am,

Before Moses,
Before Abraham,
Before Adam,
Gave a damn,

Before the problem,
The solution was formed,
Before the first skin,
was ever warmed,
Before the Sun,
was the custodian,
Of all that is old,
The new thing is done,
Before it unfolds,

In the Heart of God
It's finished,
it is done,
The ancient eyes
On what's to become,
Late in time,
Behold him, Son,
Before the battle
The fight is won,

And as Adam walked
In new felt shame,
The word, was as naked,
As candle flame,
The light was the life of men,
And we behold his glory,
Now as then,

He shone in the darkness
Not that darkness could understand
To give light to the whole house,
He put him on a stand,

In the beginning.

Heavy light

When truth came
it found me wanting;

I shone its beams
Into the dusky recesses
Of the abandoned building
In which I had taken refuge,
And huddled, startled and
Hugging my drawn in knees for comfort
It's torchlight hit my sallow skin, in the dark
And found me blinking
Malnourished
And confused,
Blinking in this strange light
Like a creature of the deep.

When truth came
It found me
And it bought ugliness
As I slowly discovered
That it was not the light that I feared
But what it revealed.

The beauty of the light
bought so much ugliness
And again I craved the darkness,

To retract;
To blot out every memory of what I'd seen,
Even the whispish traces of sight itself.

I said in my heart
'Surely the darkness will hide me'
And in my withdrawal,
this 'light' become darkness around me once more,

But it could no longer hide me,
Once the truth had come
And found me wanting,
And I found myself,
squint eyed,
Forced to eye-feast on the squalor around me,

And very slowly
My soul attuning,
My eyes adjusting
Even opening now and then,
I began to see
That the light itself
was beautiful,
That it caused things to grow,
That it was a source of warmth
That it led me out
Of the security of ignorance,
Out of the ugliness
Of darkness.
.

But
Every now and then
It brings up something
Which drives me to seek the darkness once more

But there is nowhere to hide
Even the darkness
Is as light
In the truth
That is the way of it.

Surely you desire truth
In my innermost being
And so
Like a cat caught in a sunbeam
I stretch out into it
This beautiful light
That brings ugliness
This warmth
Which tells me
Just how cold I'd become,
I stretch out and
Against my better judgement
I offer myself to its rays.