Saturday 18 May 2019

Trouble Doesn't Have a Sales Pitch

Trouble did not come looking for me
But once he found me he would not let go
His arms enfolded
To surround me
He opened the door to the motel room
He simply opened the door
And down we go

He came with protection
And with the arm
To beat the trick, the threat and me
I could not have no weak ass man
Tho he would not beat me
He would not beat my enemy

He came with the promise
He came with the lies
He came with the back of his hand
And without compromise
He came with the silver lining
He came with pretence
He came with repercussions
And he came
With the consequence

He put the world on hold
He held the concerns it voices
He held my money for me
He held all my choices



When you asked me what he said
To entice me to become his 'bitch'
You thought I was being poetic
When I said ‘Trouble doesn’t have a sales pitch’

But Trouble was his name
his name
Was literally 'Trouble'.



(Written after watching Louis Theroux' Dark States documentary on sex trafficking. The prostitute went by the name Nikki. Her pimp, Anthony Gardener, went by the name 'Trouble') 

Saturday 4 May 2019

Crucifixation

I am fixed
On the Crucifixion
Not fiction
But narrated
I'm fixated
On the cross
Of Jesus Christ
I'm enticed
To my own death
His last breath,
It cannot be missed
He told us all
It is accomplished
It. Is. Finished.
All I hoped for.
All you wished.

I think the devil
Missed  tricks
When he overlooked
The crucifix

Not that it was a deception
But just
Hid from his perception
He could never understand perfection
Was made perfect
Only in connection
With suffering
And God's suffering
Was his own free offering
A cross
Between unquenchable justice
And unstoppable mercy
And in this
They kissed
Son of God
Crucifix
And Gods Justice was sated
And now
I am fixated

The cross before me
Ever before me
The tree of curse
That should have bore me

The state of grace
Is the situation
When your diagnosis is
Cruxifixation.


 


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